[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":228},["ShallowReactive",2],{"article-幸福的孤独者":3},{"title":4,"article":5,"hot_article":14,"month_arch":77,"cover":225},"幸福的孤独者 - 独孤影的博客",{"id":6,"title":7,"uri":7,"author":8,"tags":9,"created_at":11,"view_count":12,"content":13},58,"幸福的孤独者","duguying",[10],"散文","2017-11-01 10:35:11",2895,"\u003Cblockquote>\u003Cp>人，一旦进入天命之年后就意味着进入了孤独期。尤其是独生子女家庭。记得二十几年前，父亲常常喊：“兵伢，来，来坐哈?”那时无知的我面对老父的招呼，显出明显的不耐烦，甚至冷漠，无动于衷。那时我是多么的冷酷自私呀!为什么那时我心中就没有一丝的对老人的怜悯或同情呢?其实我内心是非常悲悯老父老母的，只是自己不愿表露而已。我不想因为自己的“行孝而招来弟兄之间更深的仇隙”。这就是事实的症结，别人的不孝姑且不论，人在做天在看!我心底的内疚从没有消失过，时至今天他还让自己难安。就让自已在时间中慢慢讦悔吧!那时，而且那时父亲已经身患重病：老血栓。父亲在喊叫几遍无应后，他就孤独地喃喃自语地拖着垂暮之年的病弱之躯慢慢地走入他那低矮的老房子……\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>当时我为什么心中有恁大的抵触情绪呢?根源还是因为弟兄之间的不和。这不和的根源多是由老人的厚此薄彼引起的，当时自己为什么就过不了自己心魔那道坎呢?归根结底还是自已太自私了。现在父亲走了十一年，母亲也走了三年，我们也进入了天命之年还多五的光景，幸运的是我们还在工作还能工作!虽然如此，空闲时就感觉日子中似乎少了点什么?那就是孩子不在身边的空虚!这时自已就常常于寂寞中感受到“孤独的可怕”!是的，父辈们的“今天就是我们的明天。”“我的今天就是父亲的昨天”啊!我这不孝之子，现在终于体味到当年父亲为什么老是喊我陪他坐坐……?啊!往事堪追忆?可是这后悔能改变一切吗?能回到当年吗?能让自己重新“行孝”吗?俱往矣!现在我终于懂得了父亲当年常对我唠叨的“养儿方知父母恩”是什么意思!“寂寞使人孤独，孤独使人易老”。我现在感受到“寂寞的可怕”，或者这是“上天对自己的警告吧”!我有个和协美满的家，可是一家几囗常年在外工作，儿子儿媳他们就是把全年的假期算在内，在家住的时间也没有一个月?我现在能要求他在家陪陪我们吗?笑话!这是不可能的。当年父亲不就是这样要求我吗?可是当年父亲求孩子在身边陪坐几十分钟的愿望就变成了奢侈?唉!现在我们的孩子他为了自己的发展跑到天涯海角去打拼，如果想孩子就默默地盯住天空飞来飞去的银色机冀吧!说不定那架飞机内就坐着自己的小子呢!\u003C\u002Fp>\u003C\u002Fblockquote>\u003Cp>\u003Cbr\u002F>\u003C\u002Fp>",{"title":15,"list":16},"最热文章",[17,23,29,35,41,47,53,59,65,71],{"id":18,"title":19,"uri":20,"author":8,"created_at":21,"view_count":22},28,"docker容器目录与主机目录同步","\u002Farticle\u002Fdocker容器目录与主机目录同步","2014-12-31 12:34:08",15573,{"id":24,"title":25,"uri":26,"author":8,"created_at":27,"view_count":28},21,"beego中使用fis","\u002Farticle\u002Fbeego中使用fis","2014-12-03 10:47:56",9253,{"id":30,"title":31,"uri":32,"author":8,"created_at":33,"view_count":34},20,"用github登录，oauth开发","\u002Farticle\u002F用github登录，oauth开发","2014-11-23 13:33:37",9115,{"id":36,"title":37,"uri":38,"author":8,"created_at":39,"view_count":40},18,"windows服务注册工具nssm","\u002Farticle\u002Fwindows服务注册工具nssm","2014-10-31 21:34:39",9054,{"id":42,"title":43,"uri":44,"author":8,"created_at":45,"view_count":46},49,"用latex排版中文书籍","\u002Farticle\u002F用latex排版中文书籍","2016-10-31 11:12:02",8645,{"id":48,"title":49,"uri":50,"author":8,"created_at":51,"view_count":52},19,"texlive中文书签乱码","\u002Farticle\u002Ftexlive中文书签乱码","2014-11-15 02:54:01",8466,{"id":54,"title":55,"uri":56,"author":8,"created_at":57,"view_count":58},6,"Windows上的软件包管理器chocolatey","\u002Farticle\u002FWindows上的软件包管理器chocolatey","2014-08-10 15:55:22",8012,{"id":60,"title":61,"uri":62,"author":8,"created_at":63,"view_count":64},3,"利用开源和免费资源搭建CI环境","\u002Farticle\u002F利用开源和免费资源搭建CI环境","2014-07-04 16:54:58",7740,{"id":66,"title":67,"uri":68,"author":8,"created_at":69,"view_count":70},16,"php-fpm网站目录权限配置","\u002Farticle\u002Fphp-fpm网站目录权限配置","2014-10-18 01:36:10",7276,{"id":72,"title":73,"uri":74,"author":8,"created_at":75,"view_count":76},27,"sublime text 2插件开发，外部修改文件无法重新加载","\u002Farticle\u002Fsublime text 2插件开发，外部修改文件无法重新加载","2014-12-26 20:24:13",7055,{"title":78,"list":79},"按月归档",[80,84,87,90,93,96,99,103,107,110,113,116,120,123,126,130,133,136,139,143,146,149,152,155,158,161,164,167,170,173,176,179,182,185,188,191,194,197,200,203,207,210,213,216,219,222],{"title":81,"uri":82,"view_count":83},"2026年7月","\u002Farchive\u002F2026\u002F7\u002F1","[1]",{"title":85,"uri":86,"view_count":83},"2026年1月","\u002Farchive\u002F2026\u002F1\u002F1",{"title":88,"uri":89,"view_count":83},"2025年4月","\u002Farchive\u002F2025\u002F4\u002F1",{"title":91,"uri":92,"view_count":83},"2024年6月","\u002Farchive\u002F2024\u002F6\u002F1",{"title":94,"uri":95,"view_count":83},"2024年5月","\u002Farchive\u002F2024\u002F5\u002F1",{"title":97,"uri":98,"view_count":83},"2024年4月","\u002Farchive\u002F2024\u002F4\u002F1",{"title":100,"uri":101,"view_count":102},"2023年12月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F12\u002F1","[6]",{"title":104,"uri":105,"view_count":106},"2023年11月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F11\u002F1","[2]",{"title":108,"uri":109,"view_count":83},"2023年10月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F10\u002F1",{"title":111,"uri":112,"view_count":83},"2023年7月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F7\u002F1",{"title":114,"uri":115,"view_count":106},"2023年6月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F6\u002F1",{"title":117,"uri":118,"view_count":119},"2023年5月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F5\u002F1","[3]",{"title":121,"uri":122,"view_count":106},"2023年4月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F4\u002F1",{"title":124,"uri":125,"view_count":106},"2023年3月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F3\u002F1",{"title":127,"uri":128,"view_count":129},"2023年2月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F2\u002F1","[5]",{"title":131,"uri":132,"view_count":83},"2023年1月","\u002Farchive\u002F2023\u002F1\u002F1",{"title":134,"uri":135,"view_count":106},"2022年12月","\u002Farchive\u002F2022\u002F12\u002F1",{"title":137,"uri":138,"view_count":129},"2022年11月","\u002Farchive\u002F2022\u002F11\u002F1",{"title":140,"uri":141,"view_count":142},"2022年10月","\u002Farchive\u002F2022\u002F10\u002F1","[4]",{"title":144,"uri":145,"view_count":102},"2022年9月","\u002Farchive\u002F2022\u002F9\u002F1",{"title":147,"uri":148,"view_count":129},"2022年8月","\u002Farchive\u002F2022\u002F8\u002F1",{"title":150,"uri":151,"view_count":83},"2019年7月","\u002Farchive\u002F2019\u002F7\u002F1",{"title":153,"uri":154,"view_count":83},"2019年2月","\u002Farchive\u002F2019\u002F2\u002F1",{"title":156,"uri":157,"view_count":83},"2018年9月","\u002Farchive\u002F2018\u002F9\u002F1",{"title":159,"uri":160,"view_count":83},"2018年8月","\u002Farchive\u002F2018\u002F8\u002F1",{"title":162,"uri":163,"view_count":83},"2017年11月","\u002Farchive\u002F2017\u002F11\u002F1",{"title":165,"uri":166,"view_count":83},"2017年8月","\u002Farchive\u002F2017\u002F8\u002F1",{"title":168,"uri":169,"view_count":83},"2017年5月","\u002Farchive\u002F2017\u002F5\u002F1",{"title":171,"uri":172,"view_count":83},"2017年4月","\u002Farchive\u002F2017\u002F4\u002F1",{"title":174,"uri":175,"view_count":83},"2016年11月","\u002Farchive\u002F2016\u002F11\u002F1",{"title":177,"uri":178,"view_count":83},"2016年10月","\u002Farchive\u002F2016\u002F10\u002F1",{"title":180,"uri":181,"view_count":106},"2016年9月","\u002Farchive\u002F2016\u002F9\u002F1",{"title":183,"uri":184,"view_count":83},"2016年8月","\u002Farchive\u002F2016\u002F8\u002F1",{"title":186,"uri":187,"view_count":106},"2016年7月","\u002Farchive\u002F2016\u002F7\u002F1",{"title":189,"uri":190,"view_count":129},"2016年6月","\u002Farchive\u002F2016\u002F6\u002F1",{"title":192,"uri":193,"view_count":83},"2015年12月","\u002Farchive\u002F2015\u002F12\u002F1",{"title":195,"uri":196,"view_count":83},"2015年10月","\u002Farchive\u002F2015\u002F10\u002F1",{"title":198,"uri":199,"view_count":106},"2015年2月","\u002Farchive\u002F2015\u002F2\u002F1",{"title":201,"uri":202,"view_count":83},"2015年1月","\u002Farchive\u002F2015\u002F1\u002F1",{"title":204,"uri":205,"view_count":206},"2014年12月","\u002Farchive\u002F2014\u002F12\u002F1","[8]",{"title":208,"uri":209,"view_count":106},"2014年11月","\u002Farchive\u002F2014\u002F11\u002F1",{"title":211,"uri":212,"view_count":129},"2014年10月","\u002Farchive\u002F2014\u002F10\u002F1",{"title":214,"uri":215,"view_count":119},"2014年9月","\u002Farchive\u002F2014\u002F9\u002F1",{"title":217,"uri":218,"view_count":119},"2014年8月","\u002Farchive\u002F2014\u002F8\u002F1",{"title":220,"uri":221,"view_count":119},"2014年7月","\u002Farchive\u002F2014\u002F7\u002F1",{"title":223,"uri":224,"view_count":106},"2013年9月","\u002Farchive\u002F2013\u002F9\u002F1",{"url":226,"title":227},"https:\u002F\u002Fimage.duguying.net\u002F2022\u002F09\u002Fij6x8o4s.webp","老家 摄于2020年秋",1790781593913]